Sunday, December 19, 2010

Everything is Cool


I was walking down the road man,
Just lookin' at my shoes.
When God sent me an angel
Just to chase away my blues.

I saw a hundred thousand blackbirds
Just flyin' through the sky.
They seemed to form a teardrop
From a black-haired angel's eye.
And that tear fell all around me,
And it washed my sins away.
Now everything is cool,
Everything's okay.

And I find it real surprising
For myself to hear me say,
That everything is cool,
Everything's okay.

Yeah, everything is cool.
Everything's okay.

-John Prine

Healing

Approaching
Regaining
Stumbling
Balancing
Reflecting
Falling
Laughing
Dancing
Crying
Drying
Wishing
Feeling
Healing

Thursday, December 9, 2010

From the peanut gallery

I recently found a feature on this blog contraption that allows me to see all the comments posted on it. While perusing these reader messages, I noticed several for the first time--some of which were months old. Some of which asked questions I'd never answered. Some I had commented back to. I wasn't sure what to do with all the ignored messages. Post a comment back to them? Some were people I didn't even recognize. What are the chances they're still reading my blog, let alone checking back on that specific post for a reply? Then I thought, why not bring all these wonderful little notes to the forefront, and reply in chronological order? Enjoy.

Andrew--9/3/09--Commented on 'Two bags for two years. Fitting? I think so.'
Happy and safe travels Porter!
-Andy, thanks for the well wishes! They were and still are much appreciated.

Andrea--9/6/09--Commented on 'Two bags for two years. Fitting? I think so.'
Are you sure that's enough stuff??!!
-Andrea, if you only knew. It's really starting to look like I brought too much stuff...

Andrea--9/6/09--Commented on 'I have arrived!'
It's beautiful! Have fun, Eric!
-Andrea, isn't it gorgeous? I'm looking forward to getting back to Pohnpei, seeing my first host family again, and kicking it with the rest of my PCV group.

Beth--9/6/09--Commented on 'I have arrived!'
I suspect the surreal-ness will only increase from here on out for quite awhile. Can't wait to hear more. :) --Atkins Roomate the Younger.
Beth, your suspicion was completely accurate. Though somethings have become ordinary, much of my life is still very surreal.

Beverly--9/9/09--Commented on 'I have arrived!'
Congratulations! We at the Stevenson Center are very happy for you!
Beverly, Thanks! I'm happy for me, too.

Joan--9/9/09--Commented on 'I have arrived!'
Congrats!!!! Can't wait to hear all about your adventures and how that thesis project moves along. :) Enjoy the bliss and excitement! Joan
Joan, sorry I've been so awful about keeping up with you on the thesis. I'll send an email soon, update you. Thank you for your encouragement!

Blakeob--9/10/09--Commented on 'A week has passed.'
Miss you buddy, but stoked that you are feeling such a sense of purpose. Proud to know someone with the kidn of courage you're showing right now. Dana and I are thinking about you.
Blake, miss you buddy. Been thinking about you and DB a lot, as usual. Hope she's feeling better.

Sarah--9/18/09--Commented on 'A week has passed.'
I can't believe you're now half a world away! If there's anyone I'd nominate as my ambassador, it'd be you. So delighted that you're already so involved and excited - not that I would expect anything less. Can't wait to hear more!
Sarah, I still can't believe I'm half a world away, except when I'm waiting on mail and packages. Then, it's COMPLETELY believable. Hope I haven't fallen too far from the point where you'd nominate me as ambassador.

Nicole--9/19/09--Commented on 'A week has passed.'
Not surprised one bit you went against your safety and security officer on your first day. Your all sorts of mischief. By the way I've had Kava and its a wonderful drink, I'm sure its treating you well :) Sounds like you are having a blast, I am so happy for you Porter. PS if your living in the jungle does that mean you use jungle leaves for well number 2 j/k.
Nicole, you know me too well. Been missing you friend, and been WICKED impressed by you, after checking up on your Thailand adventure. Wow, Nicole. You're a fuckin' BADASS! Everybody, check out Nicole on youtube.com; search for Tuff Girls. Nicole be reppin' Idaho in an international Muy Thai competition! Oh, and I do use jungle leaves, when the situation calls for it.

Shawn--9/21/09--Commented on 'Two weeks have passed'
Kasalelie! Hi! I'm Shawn. I was a PCV on Yap a couple of years ago, also had a blog going. All was going according to plan (well, not really) until (dum, dum, dummmm) headquarters in DC discovered my blog. I had accidently mentioned some small things that were against the PC handbook. This unfortunate event let to my downfall as a PCV, so be careful about what you post. Yap is the best by the way. You'll LOVE it! I look forward to reading your future posts! In the meantime, have a bowl of sakau for me! Cheers, Shawn http://web.mac.com/shawnpendergrass
Shawn, thanks for the wisdom, buddy. I've taken it to heart and think that my blog has passed the Peace Corps test. Woleai was a tremendous site, fitted me perfectly, but I'm in Houk now, and I think that'll turn out pretty good too. Tried your website a couple times, but it seems to be gone.

Amy--9/21/09--Commented on 'Two weeks have passed'
Porter!!! I'm so excited for you! I'm glad that you are having such a great time (knew you would). Keep us updated when you can. We miss you here but wish you all the best in your adventures. Can't wait to hear more about your adventures... Peace! Amy
Amy, eh? EH? Have I or have I NOT kept you updated? Check-plus. Swish. Domino! Updated and then some. Thank you for your support. It means a lot. Hope you and Joe are living the dream!

Andrew--9/24/09--Commented on 'Two weeks have passed'
I'M SO EXCITED FOR PICTURES OF PORTER IN A LOIN CLOTH AND A MASSIVE BEARD! Have fun out there buddy. -Andy
Andy, pics of the beard and thu? Hope you liked 'em. How's life in Medford these days? Job?

ChrisWilliamson--10/14/09--Commented on 'Photos'
Wow! Micronesia looks even cooler than I thought! What an experience man! Keep us well updated. Love you.
SnagglePuss, seriously, huh? Freakin' awesome place. Haven't heard from you in a while, dude. Hope you're doing well. Shoot me an update if you get a chance. Miss you, Chris. Love you too.

Pablo (yo)--10/21/09--Commented on 'Three Weeks Flew By'
Great blog!!! If you like, come back and visit mine: http://albumdeestampillas.blogspot.com Thanks, Pablo from Argentina.
Pablo, thanks, fella. Checked your blog back in the day, but I'm not strong enough in my Spanish skills to make much of it.

Jane--10/23/09--Commented on 'Unfortunately these can't be sent in a care package'
hello, I am Jane from Philippines. And I am currently working on a Postcard Project where the goal is to received postcards stamped and written all over the world. Jane enajpostcards.blogspot.com 565 North Poblacion, 6037 Naga, CEBU, PHILIPPINES
jane, sorry I never got around to the postcard thing, but I got a LOT of these posts. Hopefully you've gotten an FSM stamp for your collection.

Blakeob--10/24/09--Commented on 'Unfortunately these can't be sent in a care package'
Hey buddy - I've got a letter on the way but I'm not sure how long until it gets to ya. Great post. And yeah...that really sucks that you always take Dana's side. I guess I can't blame you though, since she's usually representing the correct argument. I was dissapointed in the loin cloth pic. Wish it would have been better blackmail material. hope you get the letter soon!
Blake, speaking of letters (over a year ago) did you get my most recent letter yet? If not, I have a digital copy and will send it to you. By now, I'll bet you've got all the blackmail you'll ever need. Did you SEE that latest thu pic? Definite buttcheek goin' on there.

megan--10/24/09--Commented on 'Photo Essay: Sept. 27th-Oct. 23rd'
the skies! i would like for those skies to be above me right now. its nice to see your smiling face. thanks for the midterm study break. hope your today is beauty-filled.
megan, such gorgeous skies in Micronesia, I know. I hope Cleveland is giving you something beautiful to enjoy, as well. Hope you're having an awe-filled day!

Sherti--10/25/09--Commented on 'Photo Essay: Sept. 27th-Oct. 23rd'
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Sherti, this is a very confusing post. What are you trying to say? Are you suggesting I remove those pictures? Who are you, and what business of yours is it? HUH?! PUNK! NON-BUSINESS! THAT'S WHAT! I'm just kidding, I know this is a message telling me that YOU deleted your post. Been curious about it ever since...

Nicole--10/27/09--Commented on 'Unfortunately these can't be sent in a care package'
Turkey Bowl without you won't be the same. I'll miss hanging out with you this winter and catching up. I always enjoyed those times, I looked forward to those every year.
Nicole, ah... T-Bowl. Can't wait till I'm back in the fray, and can't wait till we can have a nice long chat to catch up on the past couple years.

Radka--11/1/09--Commented on 'Photo Essay: Sept. 27th-Oct. 23rd'
Hello, you have a very nice blog, Have a nice day, Radka.
Radka, thank you. That's a very nice comment, and I hope you've been having many nice days since you made it.

Andy--11/10/09--Commented on 'Did I say the first three weeks of training flew by?'
It's Andy Lucas, for some reason my google account forced me to use the name Andrew and not Andy. Probably because that's how I have the name set on my gmail. I was thinking about you just last night as I sat down in a chair and it wobbled slightly. This was the same chair we (read, you and Aaron, not me, although I witnessed it) broke during that uber EPIC night of John's Birthday. :) EPIC! And you're much easier to wrestle when you're drunk.
Andy, sorry 'bout that chair, buddy. And, yes, I am easy to beat when drunk. Please, always use this great and terrible power for good, never for evil.

Beverly--1/26/10--Commented on 'Intermediate--Mid'
Hi, Porter! I look forward to hearing from you. Beverly Beyer Stevenson Center for Community & Economic Development Illinois State University
Hey, Beverly! I know this was a LONG time ago, and that you heard from me after it, but I'll get another email to you here soon.

Greg--3/1/10--Commented on 'B-Town vs. Woleai'
Interesting. Always wanted to get there. PMA let us down when in Yap and we hadn't time for the boat. Are they still wearing loincloths? Do you? Woman's apparel? Do they speak a dialect of their own or has English taken over? Is Tuba distilled like Arak (Indonesia, etc.) or just fermented, with potency of beer or wine? What percentage of the people have electricity?
Greg, Woleai is SO AWESOME! I'm sorry you weren't able to make it there. They do still wear loinclothes (called 'thu' or 'mengaagu feliuwashe', the latter meaning 'clothing of our island'), I DEFINITELY rock the thu (still do in Houk, too), and the women rock lavalava, a beautiful and intricate woven wrap skirt. They speak Woleaian, similar to other Micronesian tongues but distinct enough to be its own language. English is becoming more and more prominent, but Woleaian is in no danger of disappearing any time soon. The locals don't often distill faluba, though I was able to try some during my time there. It's freakin' good! They know how to distill, but I imagine they decide against it because of the time commitment. On Falalap (the main island), everyone has electricity. The other islands are equipped with solar, but only a few people have personal panels. Hope that answers your questions. Ask more if you have them (and still read this)!

Semprilibri--4/22/10--Commented on 'Ha!'
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Semprilibri, another stamper, eh? Well, I never made it to your site, but I'll do that right now. Thanks for you words of kindness.

Jack--6/4/10--Commented on 'B-Town vs. Woleai'
Was on one of the small islands in 86. Have [fond] memories and good friends left there. Maybe one day I'll get back...
Looks like the Micro Spirit !! Spent 10 days on her..
Jack, which island were you on? Clearly it was outer islands of Yap, since you know the Micro Spirit. Would love to hear more about your experience.

megan--6/9/10--Commented on 'A dream is ending...'
hug.
megan, hug back.

Beth--6/14/10--Commented on 'Clever men'
This makes laugh every time I watch it. Yes, many repeat watchings. The question is, do you think you are more funny than I do, or the reverse?
Beth, come on, of course I think I'm funnier. Did you not see all that smugness on my face? Glad you enjoyed the video.

Sarah--6/18/10--Commented on 'A dream is ending...'
Porter, Porter! You make my heart break and feel angry on your behalf! I am with you in spirit and sending loads of hugs your direction. Still hoping we'll get a chance to talk one of these days. BE WELL my friend, you have already given so much to the people of Woleai, the residents of Houk will be lucky to have you. I know this because I've experienced it first hand!
Sarah, thank you so much. These words were a great comfort and still are. Hope you're doing well today, Sarah.

Nick--9/11/10--Commented on 'HOLY SHI...'
Hey Porter, I'm reading the blog, and understand you've moved. I'm glad to hear you'll still get a chance to return to Woleai occasionally. (One thing left unexplained: what was your attraction to an outer island? Knowing little about the region, I wonder what the cultural differences might be. Looking forward to hearing about your new situation and your new community. All well here. --nick
Nick, glad to know things are good with you. For me, the outer islands had many attractive features. On a professional level, they have much fewer resources and are more in need of the service Peace Corps offers. On a personal level, I knew the life would be simpler, more isolated, and simply better suited to me and the kind of experience I was looking for (still am looking for). I wanted to cut back, and I've been doing that. Also, the culture is more traditional and salient in everyday life. It's a beautiful experience, one I'm immensely grateful to be having.

Pops--10/30/10--Commented on 'On to Houk w/Stop At Lamotrek, Around ' & 'Traveling Porters (Mom and Pops in Yap!)
The picture of the cribbage board hurts! Pops
Eric, I miss you son! Pops
Pops, I've been missing you too, and that cribbage board ought to hurt. STINK HOLED! (A note to non-cribbers, the be stink holed, is to be beaten by one point)

Sarah--11/12/10--Commented on 'A tidal wave of doubt'
My dear friend, my heart goes out to you as you are missing Andy and dealing with loss and challenges! I know how dark and wretched these storms of doubt and disgust can be. Here is one voice offering as much love for and faith in your character as I can communicate. Your ability to acknowledge your struggles is proof enough of your strength to grow through them. Hold on Porter, feel what you feel and let the negative weights pass away. Your soul has been crafted by God! You are a man of God's shaping, loved and respected by all who know you. May God's peace find you now my friend. Sarah
Sarah, again, you provide words of great comfort. I'm so lucky to have you as a friend in my life.

Nicole--11/25/10--Commented on 'Some Perspective'
Everybody goes through phases of ruin and rebuild. My friend, realize that with ruin comes more understanding of yourself. You become more aware of what your heart needs and wants rather than your ego. Reading all these updates I see you constantly re-finding yourself on this journey. Keep up all the work you do, you are an amazing individual!
Nicole, no doubt, no doubt. Dark comes before the light, and it's cresting the ridge as we type. Thank you for this message.

Amy--11/30/10--Commented on 'Some Perspective'
Hey! Glad you are finding some joy! We all experience life differently so I'm not going to say that I've been there, but things can get pretty rough out there in the jungle, bush, coast, steppe, etc. for even the strongest folks. Hang in there and do what you need to do to stay with it...even if that means spending way to much of your stipend to get to a decent shower/restaurant you enjoy/shop that sells that beer you like...whatever. Blessings!
Amy, thanks for the advice, it's always good coming from you. Hope your prep for Liberia is coming along smoothly!

Michael Everson--12/9/10--Commented on 'First Month or so in Woleai'
I'm wondering if while you were in Woleai you saw any examples of the Woleai script, a writing system dating perhaps from 1905 and which was in use at least in the 1950s.
Michael, I have seen the Woleaian script, but from what I can tell, it's no longer in use on the island. It certainly is not in common usage. The Roman alphabet has supremacy, which is too bad, That Woleaian script was really cool!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Negative Fishing



A couple more PCVs from my group came in, Dan and Trevor, who stay in the Mortlock Islands (south east of the Chuuk Lagoon). They're both great guys, and Trevor was my roommate through staging up till we moved in with host families. He's a really unique and interesting guy. Really love chatting with him. The three of us tried fishing last Friday. To sum it up, we titled the day "Negative Fishing". We rented two sea kayaks from a resort here, after purchasing some supplies for the day. After some pretty sad rigging of the fishing line in local style (secured to and wrapped around a short piece of 1x4), we took to the lagoon. Dan was in a single kayak and Trevor and I were in the other kayak, also designed for one person. Things started just fine, though balancing was a bit tricky. We got a ways out, had a good rhythm going with out paddles, and started surveying where we'd want to try fishing. That was the pinnacle of our fishing day. After that, we started loosing things.

I turned around (was sitting in the back recess, meant for gear) and noticed Trevor's flip-flops were no longer with us. We spotted one and were able to get it, but the other alluded us. Unbeknownst to the operators, our kayak was taking on a prodigious amount of water, becoming more unstable with every second. It tipped over, my newly purchased snorkel mask (left my other in Houk), the fish we'd bought for bait and a REALLY important set of keys to the office sank beneath the gentle lagoon waves.


We righted the kayak, got Trevor back in and all the gear--save those mentioned above. Trevor's backpack was soaking, though. Also, I couldn't get back into the kayak, due to how tip-happy it had become. This exposed me to an unanticipated danger: jellyfish. Big ones. Lots of them. Dan tried to come to our rescue, but took too long. He did, however, bring the beer, which was even better. We cracked one open and shared it around. I took some photos, and then Trevor started towing us in. At one point, I looked to my left and there was a jellyfish within reach the size of my head! Somehow I managed not to get stung on the way in, we swapped places about halfway and Trevor, likewise, escaped the jellys' wrath.

Dan kept fishing for a while, and Trevor and I had a great chat, munching Cheese-Its and drinking more beer, drying out our stuff. During it, I really started to formulate a plan to check out the US after I'm done with my Master's. Go check out the country, you know? Visit friends from before and during Peace Corps. It's really sounding like exactly what I need to do, because I BARELY know any of the States outside of my little corner in the Northwest. I think that needs to be addressed. Otherwise, I'm going to know a tiny island nation in the Pacific better than my own homeland.

Anyhow, we BSed, relaxed, enjoyed some of the late, slanting rays of the day's sun, and then headed on home. It was such a great day, and the tremendous failure that was fishing only made it better. Could NOT have been better. Could not have been better.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Nov. '10--On the Main, a-gain (Weno)

Now for some pics from the past few weeks. We've got shots from around Weno, of course: the office (my obnoxious hair-do), a hotel, pics from my host family's place (sunrise/sets and moon), and various places in-between. I went to another lagoon island, Tonoas, to meet the new volunteers, watch them swear-in and hangout with the PCV from my group stationed there. Also went to Eot, a small island that one of the PCVs who is just about to finish his service is placed on. A big group of PCVs and Jesuit Volunteers went together as a sort of Thanksgiving celebration. Be warned, we buried one guy in the sand, made him into a mermaid and gave him very voluptuous breasts. The final photo is of a jelly fish sting I got. You can hardly see it, and I could hardly feel it (wasn't sure it had actually happened). Fitting, no? Not pictured are the week I spent substituting at a local private high school on Weno, meeting with reps from the Chuuk Mental Health Department to discuss some collaboration between our offices, three straight days of submitting stool samples to a clinic here for my mid-service medical exams, or my new application - a 3D model of the human brain with labels and fairly in-depth overviews of each lobe/function area. It's badass.










































Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Some Perspective

So the blog has taken a bit of a downer tone as of late, yes? As a friend recently commented, I sound 'broken'. Well, I'd like to strive for a bit more balance and hopefully demonstrate my very much not-broken-ness-scousity... Anyhow, here's a clip from an email I just sent my pops this week. I'm doing okay, please don't worry.

"Thank you for the encouragement, Pops. This experience has certainly lived up to the whole 'life changing' billing it received from everyone I talked to about Peace Corps before joining. What's most amazing to me, right now, is how this has become the hands down most turbulent time in my life (physically, emotionally, locationally) and yet, I'm finding new, unimagined and incredibly deep levels of peace, happiness, joy, and child-like mirth. My blog has been a little heavy on the somber notes lately, but just yesterday, I was buying some groceries, and thought of a silly little joke from some TV show. The impulse to laugh out loud and my full-bodied reaction to the humor of it was overwhelming--stronger than the reactions I recall having while in the States. In some ways, I'm a more reflective, serious, anxious and sad person than I was before, but I'm also much happier, more joyful, silly, relaxed, laid back and peaceful than ever in my life. And it's all that much more special, important, and eye-opening to me for the juxtaposition. If I can be feeling these positive moments so viscerally WHILE I'm also burdened by the other side of the coin, just imagine when it's lifted! Such an exciting time to be alive!"

Monday, November 22, 2010

Theory of Intelligence

I shit you not, my mom sent this to me. Such a great woman.

Cliff's (from the TV show Cheers) theory of intelligence, as explained to Norm:

"Well you see, Norm, it's like this .. . . A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive intake of alcohol kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that, Norm, is why you always feel smarter after a few beers."

My brain, oh-ho, it's efficient. Thanks for the knowledge, Mom. Theory made practical has never been more enjoyable!

Nov. 5th-8th, '10--Riding the Nien Chuuk

Here are photos from my ride in from on a fishing boat. Took four days, visited four islands, landed on three of them. It was pretty freakin' cool. Hope you like the pics!